the rat will be free for a definite and substantial period

Cross Patch finally signed my leave form. i am so delighted!!!!! i felt giddy all day. i'm really looking forward to it. playstation, pc games, sleep and lots of it, food i wont have to pay for, presence of house help. oh what joy will it bring to me :)

congrats!

congrats to Carambs and Dakila. they are officially engaged. much love! :)

personal theme song of the moment: Bullet With Butterfly Wings

the line is SO apt for me: despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

so what now? as if heaven and earth would be moved for me. i'm just hoping that Cross Patch will understand and let go of me.

well, thanks to Billy Corgan for forming up that line / sentence. makes me feel a lot better now even though it speaks well of my pathetic situation. what an irony.

Bullet With Butterfly Wings
Melon Collie and the Infinite Sadness
Smashing Pumpkins

Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost may never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage (repeat)

And I still believe that I cannot be saved