pawns

White Mommy and i were texting last night. i'll share one of her text messages to me:

[oops, her text message is saved in my other phone. i'm using a different phone right now. i loaned it from the Phone Gods. i feel stupid having 3 phones right now, with 3 different SIMs, of 3 different Telcos.]

i feel sad.. i feel like such a pawn.. tama ba to that more than anything i feel betrayed? i guess its because i was really dedicated and really believed that i would be part of reaching that goal for interactive.. even at the expense perhaps of my own kids and even my own career interests or financial needs. hay.. i feel like i stood for a lost cause or that even there was no cause to work or fight for.. we are such pawns bratty dont you think? when in the future we become big players we should always remember what we are going thru now. hay.